Saturday, February 17, 2007


I'll admit it--ever since

Izzie screamed those strange words at George
and Derek emerged all wet and very hot from the water with Meredith
and McSteamy and McDreamy were friends again
and Alex and Addison were undressing each other with their eyes
and Christina realizes she might lose "her person"

I've completely, totally, and utterly had Grey's on the brain. So, who better to offer up a quote today than Meredith Grey.

I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope... -Dr. Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

I feel this way all the time--like I'm just playing house and haven't actually grown up. I feel this way every single time I celebrate a birthday. This year, it was "Am I seriously 27? I can't be 27. I think I might still be a kid." My parents are constantly saying things to me that I find completely ridiculous. Maybe I react this way because I still think I'm a kid and that my every move needs to work towards defying my parents. Will I ever finally just feel like an adult?

I have to admit I just discovered Grey's. Mostly because I already feel I watch enough TV and didn't want to start watching something else when it came on. We work nights, so we tape all the shows we want to watch and then view them the next morning after work. I have a show for M-F (with 3 on Monday now). But when Lifetime decided to start running Grey's on Sundays, I made the decision to start watching them from the beginning. WOW....have I ever been missing out. I was hooked from the very first show. Now that being said.....on to the quote of the day:

I have to admit to feeling like I was "playing" adult for a lot of years. Who in the world decided I was old enough to be married? Who decided I was responsible enough to have children? When did the idea of retirement start popping up in my head? When did my children, grandchildren and even my younger coworkers start turning to me for advise? And why?
And I've had these questions for most of my adult life. And then one day it happened. My father passed away 13 years ago but my mom was still around. Then she passed almost 2 years ago and a month before that my last grandparent. That's when it happened. I'm the last link between my children and what comes after we leave this world. There is no barrier between that and me anymore. Retirement is looming ahead in the next 6-7 years, people turn to me for advise "like I know the answers", and I'm starting to feel like I actually know a thing or two about life. Decisions are easier, I guess, because I have been through things that help me get through the next thing. I truly believe each experience we encounter prepares us for the next and makes it easier to handle. So here I am, 54 and finally feeling like an adult. But don't get me wrong, there are still moments when that isn't the case, but they are fewer than they used to be. I like getting older and hopefully wiser and looking forward to all life has to bring me.

And by the way, I LOVE Dr. McDreamy!

1 comment:

Latharia said...

I think there are always moments when we think we don't have the answers. But boy, does it feel good to be able to offer up a few to someone in need, or WHAT?